hi luna_s0lyou natal chart,as the composite, has aspects of great awareness and aspects that are rather despondent.
the node on the ascendant is one of the strongest aspects of psychic abilities.it also gives intelligence and usually a clear perspective of the world.but orcus is conjunct the ascendant/node with shows you also have unconscious mental dynamics affecting you.
in addition your moon is conjunct to nessus and the node which also gives emotional issues that may be repressed or blocked. but I will get back to these aspects after first continuing with your psychic aspects.
you have your sun sextile to Uranus and these form trine/sextile to the node. this pattern is extremely creative,aware and gives access to the astral plane.this pattern increases psychic abilities and gives you prophetic dreams. you can have vivid/flying dreams. you dreams can give you insights that transcend time and space.
with this pattern one would expect you to be able to see the truth in relationships, but the emotional aspects surrounding the node/moon/orcus/nessus can be very destructive.
these symbols are often associated with abusive experiences in childhood.though you moon gives you very strong intuitions, Nessus and orcus can repress you memories of painful childhood experiences.
the moon position suggest that you mother was not a open emotional person. this dose not preclude a strong co0nnection with your mother,but it does indicate that she did not clarify any emotional turbulence you had as a child. this tends to show her as selfish, though protective. these characteristics are part of you and give you a unconscious selfish side to your personality. You likley also have difficulty expressing your inner feelings.
so you have a built in paradox.
the node/sun/Uranus patterns is extremely clear and far sighted but these abilities are tempered or blocked because of your abusive childhood experiences.
you have juno conjunct to juno which shows that you deeply want a committed relationship/marriage. in the composite Jupiter is opposed to your Lilith/juno which might be why you felt the hookup was something greater than a simple sexual liaison.
I think the insecurities exemplified by the moon/nessus/orcus pattern clouded you vision of what was really before you.
in addition you are extremely passionate. your mars is square to juno and venus. this tends to show that sexual relationships for you are a part of committed feelings.
this is intensified as the mars/venus midpoint is conjunct to ceres and the sun.this again shows that sexuality and commitment are intertwined in you personality. you also have a eros/psyche square which again characterizes you as romantic and idealistic in relationships.
in addition eris is at midheaven opposed to Jupiter on the nadir, which again is extremely sexual and ambitious.so you inherently strive for a committed relationship and don't look for "stop" signs.
the sun/Uranus midpoint is conjunct to mercury which again sharpens your psychic abilities but mercury is also square to the moo/nessus conjunction. This is specifically a aspect of repressed or blocked memories.
what might be happening is ,that if you have blocked abusive memories,then you don't see similar tendencies in the others. so here you thought there was a greater depth to the relationship, but he turned out to be a player because you have repressed the ability to see these motives.
your Pluto/Saturn midpoint is conjunct to Jupiter and opposed to eris which can be abusive aspect relating to your father.it might be his influence in your emotional development has given you a emotional block about the nature of some men.your satrun/chiron and Saturn/eros midpoints are conjunct you node also. this indicates that your father was extremely abusive and it might be that your repression his actions that have caused you lack of insight.
I have to emphasize that you have very strong mental/psychic/astral abilities, so it would have taken very destructive abusive actions on your father part to block you self understanding of his destructive nature.
todd